Going thru similar shit right now myself I found an anchor in working out. I started from total zero - zero push ups, zero pull ups, zero sqats, zero crunches. I can do most of these now, with pullups to go still. But I also got into better mindset and learning discipline too. Good stuff that I've neglected for 20+ years.
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You were gaining exp in opsec by doing that :D
First, some background: Feeling stupid can happen because when you feel anxiety, your frontal lobe (where you think) turns off. Anxiety is a form of fight or flight, and when that kicks in, your amygdalas (base of brain) block off the thinking part of your brain.
TIL, thank you <3
This one paragraph explained a lot for me why during my anxiety attacks I feel like I cannot do anything. I gonna try to rationalize this information next time it triggers. Recently I had good results with doing long walks (compared to my sitting life) with doggo.
I find it helpful in two ways - when I already got an attack I go with him to stop. This one is kinda coping mechanism to get away from the trigger.
Other thing is I started to make it into my routine to go on longer walks, and during them I explore some topics I find uncomfortable and it makes them less threatening than when I sit at home. The goal is to get accustomed to the feeling, take it in environment that is safe space to explore it. I want to be able to identify it and then maybe could teach myself to react differently, instead of crippling myself.
I managed finally to set up several VMs and connect them into kubernetes cluster so I can learn that tech properly. I come from one or two layers below, I've been Linux admin who touched Ansible and did some open stack ocherstration but never had opportunity to go higher due to the project specific issues. So here I am, in theory a senior, learning popular tech which is required from juniors. Humbling experience, and NGL after 30 it's getting harder, but it's still fun.
For details if anyone is interested I made six vms, one serves haproxy, two are worker VM, three are controller. They are connected into network, and I run kubespray to create cluster from that. All localhost which is nice. I make small readme on it to later format and put ^^ I had issues with set up like WSL having python3.8 and kubespray refusing to find pip deps, which I figure more people might encounter if they experiment. And as admin, for me it was always the greatest hussle to setup the toolset, all later steps are a breeze compared.
Kubernetes seems cool :3
Everything that you use for prolonged amounts of time every day. For me it was ergonomic chair, keyboard, pillow. Expensive is a word, but I would rather think higher quality when choosing replacement for stuff I use.
Another category of things is hobby equipment, for me it's instruments. When I buy one it's to last. So when I was buying digital piano I went for one over my budget because I don't plan to get rid of it for next 5-10 years still, and it was 5years ago. Overall stuff that you don't usually think of buying frequently.
Last category I think of i go for higher quality stuff then generic ones are travel stuff. Last thing you want during your trip, short or long, distant or near, is to deal with faulty bag, broken wheel, or such.
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