It seems like you are stuck in a bad environment at the moment and that does not help with your own progression.
Having a good team culture makes a lot of difference. When you get support and help from your lead and other devs, it makes life a lot better, and you learn much more from one another.
Go. Go see what else is out there and find a better place for you.
Love this idea. But being as shit as I am, I think I'll just lose 1 minute after no rush ends.